Sondra's Journal

Due on the 7th ... it's now the 10th

He'll come when he's ready or they'll induce me on the 16th.

*sigh* if one more person says "Are you still pregnant" I'm likely going to rip off their head.

Patience is not my strong suit.

13 days until my due date... anytime now is a good time for me though!

You're 10 already o_O

I hope your day rocks and you let Mommy take lots of pictures to post!

Hugs 'n' Kisses!

I was just thinking that I haven't done anything for ME in years. I used to paint and sculpt and read and walk.... Anything I have done has been for work or for others.

I don't even own paint brushes anymore. I used to be pretty good too.

I'm semi being forced to take time off which is embarrassing to say. I'm having a baby and work had to force me to take time off. I'm not proud. I just know how hard I've worked to get here and I don't want to lose momentum. Plus I firmly believe I CAN do it all. I dare anyone to tell me otherwise.

Sooooo... back to this time off thing. I was thinking about how I would keep myself busy. Keep myself sane and I've made a to do list for myself.

I want to build an maintain my own website.

Scrapbooking looks challenging and extremely creative -- each one is unique -- I'd like to do one for Haydn.

PAINT! I've been bummed that I haven't been able to afford nice art work and the house looks bare. Well I'm going to come up with a couple of creative projects and do it myself.

Here's my issue - an obstacle I will have to overcome - anything I do for me is deemed (in the back of my head) to be unproductive. Selfish. I guess if I can get my head wrapped around being someone's mother I can get my head wrapped around the idea that doing things for me is okay.... as long as all my other chores are done.


Edit: I can't spell

What's new?

Ummmm .....

33 weeks... 7 more to go

The beano has found my ribs and seems to enjoy curling his wee toes around them and swinging.

Natalie is pregnant ... with TWINS!

I went to see the gyno in Orillia. His receptionist asked if Dave and I were married. I said "No, we're living in sin." She said "Well, that's your problem. You're a tramp." She totally made my day.

Mood swings seemed to have evened out but it's really on a minute to minute basis.

Work is forcing me to take time off this summer. We'll see how that works out. I've busted my ass to get where I am I can't see me letting a college kid take over something that will happen easily. I'll do my best not to micro-manage but realistically it's just not me to give up one thing for another. I want to do it all. I do it all.

I'm not cool with this baby shower business. I'm the person that gives condoms as a gift at a baby shower.

I don't like the inevitable feeling of obligation to buy something that comes with baby showers or bridal showers or any other kind of party that requires one to bring gifts. And I REALLY don't like that people are going to feel that way because of me. A gift is something that someone gives because they want to and are able to not because they HAVE to. Receiving gifts is nerve racking for me too. I don't ever want to disappoint someone with a subpar reaction but I don't want to patronize them either with an overacted semi forced reaction.

I just want to see my friends. I can do without the gifts .... is that wrong???

Haydn is kicking the shit out of me AND he has the hiccups.

 I'm having a really hard time with this whole not-being-able-to-do-everything-myself thing. I have a massive "to do" list and it's not being whittled away fast enough dammit. My body craps out after the most menial of tasks... June can't get here soon enough. 

I've had a VERY easy pregnancy so far but I want to meet my son already. I'm done being pregnant. 

I'm 31 weeks 9 weeks to go (giver take)

Is being hyper-emotional over some things and emotionally stunted over others pregnancy or am I just a selfish bitch who's unable of having logical emotional reactions? I probably don't want to know the answer so let’s say this was a rhetorical question.

 

BAH … If I could disappear for a while I would

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WES WES!!!!

I am six months pregnant.

It's a boy - it's confirmed

OMG I'm going to be someone's mother

http://community.livejournal.com/randompics/2033780.html

They posted a picture of me that I took as a joke for Blake's birthday last year ('07)

How the hell does that happen???

bimmed from sunnyisawesome

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I gotz lots to say but no real time to say it. Saw Bubba Chubs!! And I'm pretty sure I saw a trigger too :oD I'll know for sure Jan 25th.

2008 is looking to be an interesting year. I'm going to be a mom which I haven't fully wrapped my head around yet but I'm sure it will all come together. If you see my sanity on ebay you'll know why.

I'm broken

Today is All Saints Day: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/All_Saints

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTJ)

Your personality type is logical, uncompromising, independent, and nonconformist. Only about 3% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 4% of all men. You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Judging.

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